Tuesday, March 10, 2015

God offends the mind to reveal the heart

In Chapter 11 of Growing in the Prophetic, Mike Bickle talks about how God offends the mind to reveal the heart. As a non-charaimatic walking into charismatic people, I can relate. Mike mentioned that the Holy Spirit doesn't seem to concerned with reputation and sometimes intentionally offends people. One of the examples given was the healing of Naaman in 2 Kings 5. Naaman didn't want to do what the prophet asked, but eventually did after receiving advice, and was healed. So long as what one ministering to me is asking me to do does not violate scripture, I want to have the humility to at least give it a shot. For example, my wife gave me a list of statements of who I am in Christ, but I didn't want to say them out loud in the mirror seven times, as she felt the Lord was prompting her to tell me. However, I eventually swallowed my pride and the result was that the oppression I felt lifted.

Mike also mentioned the issue of bizarre methods or unconventional ministry styles, but mentioned stepping out in faith with those who have an established positive track record. I would also like to employ the same attitude. Having myself seen the strange way that God has worked in the scriptures (2 Kings 6, Ezekiel 4), I want to make sure I do not arrogantly reject what God might be saying through others, because it did not come in the package I preferred.

I also greatly appreciated Mike's recommendation with how to handle public corrections. I always wondered how to deal with this, but Mike suggested letting the first fleshly word slide (unless clearly unbiblical or destructive). If they continue, then privately talk with them about saying less, then asking them not to speak in public, then warning them that a public rebuke will come if they continue, then public rebuke with public explanation that the offender was privately warned. In this manner, the church is protected and understands the process, so those who want to grow in prophetic ministry are not discouraged.


Mike also explained that the Pharisees were actually the conservative intellectuals that basically held the line of orthodoxy. However, their problem was pride. They believed they were the only ones with the truth, interpreting scripture through the lens of their elders. They were also “content to be seen as orthodox without hungering for the presence of God Himself” (Bickle, p121). I've seen elements of this in myself, which God is working out. I want the humility to recognize when I or my group gets thigns things wrong so I can allow the Holy Spirit to be my teacher, instead of my spiritual “tribe.” Secondly, I will always remember that God wants me to be grounded in His written Word, but that Word was made flesh and wants me to encounter the Emanuel, “God with us” reality here and now in my experience, through the promised Holy Spirit.

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Be with me

So I spent 2 hours meditating on John 14:27, and God used it to bring freedom to my heart. I began by considering the word “Father,” asking the Holy Spirit to reveal to me God as father. I got a series of phrases that were directed towards how God felt towards me. Through the next few phrases, I experienced something similar. Then, when I got to “may be with me where I am,” I felt the Lord say “I want you with me, Robert” and it struck chord in me. You see, in high school I was “on fire for Jesus.” I felt the Lord call me to be a pastor, I was getting involved in evangelism and I was consuming the Word like nobodies business. I literally told God that I surrendered my whole being to Him and He could do with me whatever He wanted. Point being, I wanted to give my 100%, going hard after the Lord. Then, I went through six years of Clinical Depression, which was the darkest six years of my life. I felt that my faith got severely damaged and it became a fight for me not to give up talking to God. Consequently, I often relate to Peter. Peter was all in for Jesus and was the one that seemed to give His 100%. However, Jesus told Peter that he would deny Jesus. Though Peter denied that he would do such a thing, the time came that Peter did deny Jesus and, when he realized what Jesus said had happened, he wept bitterly.

While God has been healing my heart, just as with Peter on the shore when Jesus reinstated him, there have still been parts of me that have felt unworthy or guilty. As I meditated on Jesus' desire to be with me, that unworthy feeling got touched and I couldn't quite fully believe that Jesus wanted to be with me. However, I knew that Jesus did want to be with me and I started praying to God about this issue. I was reminded of two verses: Romans 8:1 and Romans 5:8. Romans 8:1 reminded me that “there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” Through Christ, I was no longer condemned, so I can reject condemnation. Then Romans 5:8 reminded me of God's love, which was so deep that Jesus died for my while I was still a sinner! Reflecting on God's love, I believed the Gospel. Satan immediately brought doubt into my heart, but I chose to trust in the Gospel and believe that Jesus desired me and through faith in His blood, I was fully cleansed, fully forgiven. Thank God that He has been answering my prayer to help me overcome my unbelief, and is helping me to believe the Gospel more fully.Thank God Jesus wants to be with me!